I think this may be one of the times in my life I'll look back on with fondness. I'm living in a city I love in a house with a bunch of really awesome guys, and I have almost nothing to worry about. There have been a few times in my life like this, and I know they're too rare to ignore. Of course, there's the usual thorns in my side, just anything in my life that makes it less than perfect. The thorns at present are: my job and the specific area of town I live in. I never really liked the Northeast. It seems like a lesser version of the area I lived in Calgary previously, that being Brentwood. I guess it's ok, though. I'm close to everything I need.
And I can't complain too much about my job. they haven't fired me yet, and they offer me extra shifts every once in awhile, so I guess they don't totally hate me. But I sure don't want to wash dishes for the rest of my life. There's a couple guys there who are quite a bit older than me who do the same job, and the thought of doing that job when I'm 20 years older terrifies me. Thank God for that. That's what will save me from that fate. But I'm slowly working on my plan to get back to school. Hey, if anyone isn't familiar with my future career plans, you can take a look at this. It's the course I'm planning on taking, hopefully very soon:
http://www.avc.calgary.ab.ca/courses_programs/hcc/personal_care_attendant_cert.htm
If you're familiar with that kind of work, you'll know it can be pretty nasty stuff at times, and I'm not too enthusiastic about that, but the idea of being able to help people so much really appeals to me. I kind of wish I'd done this a few years ago, when it would've been so much easier, financially speaking. But I'd considered it then, and rejected the idea, because I didn't think it would challenge me enough.
Sometimes I really wish I could already "be there" in terms of my career. I hate knowing that I have so much farther to go. I hate having to plan huge things in my life. I'd love so much to be able to just live where I live, keep the job I have now and just be happy with that. But I'm not. Well, I guess you could say I'm happy right now. But I'm not feeling fulfilled. Damn my longing to make a meaningful contribution to the world around me. It's screwing everything up. But I've got my house, my roomies, my own room...
So for a very little while, I'm ok.