I hate neglecting my blog for long periods of time, yet I still do it. I don't know why. Anyways, lemme see what's been going on in my life. I just got a couple T-4's in the mail. They're late cuz they were redirected from my old place in Ontario. I did a bit of math and figured out that I made a grand total of a little over $6000 last year. How very very sad is that. I got another letter from the Student loan people. I have another form I have to fill out. That's pretty annoying, but with my work situation lately, I'm more and more motivated to get back to school. Lately, I've been getting four shifts at work a week. I mentioned that before, I think but it's still really annoying me. I was wanting to find another job, but I've only managed to hand out one resume. I made a decent effort to get a job at that place, but no luck. I seem to be able to scrape by on the pitiful hours I'm getting at the Olive Garden, so I'm probably going to endure that. I find that I don't change anything going on my life unless I absolutely need to. So I guess it doesn't make sense to some that I want to go back to school. In a sense, though I need to do that. I "need" to go back to school for the sake of my sanity, and spiritual wellbeing, I guess you'd call it. Something like that. I'm really not sure how I'll be able to handle doing home care working with fogeys, but like i"ve told a few people, I know it'll be a lot better than anything I've done so far, so in that sense, it's good enough for me. I wonder if I'll be able to handle it, or even enjoy it. We'll know soon enough.
um... what else. I've been making foolish attempts to socialize more with people outside the house, mostly women. That either goes really well, or really badly. Let me first say that I'm not necessarily doing this for the sake of finding true love or anything cheesy like that. I guess you'd just call it life-enriching experience. But in a couple cases, it seems after the first one or two times that I meet up with some of these people I meet off the net, they totally ostracize me (look it up. if you improve your vocabulary because of me, my life will have a purpose.) and they barely say two words to me, or nothing at all. If anyone has any idea what, if anything I'm doing wrong, please feel free to let me know. Maybe I'm just being paranoid, I dunno. Maybe it's one of those things I'm not meant to understand.
So I was at Sev last night buying some milk, and there was this chick standing at the counter reading a men's bodybuilding magazine. She was making all kinds of noises and saying how disgusting these bodybuilders looked, all bumpy and veiny and stuff like that. Then she said, "EWWWWW!!" then she turned to me and said, "Do you wanna see this guy's butt? I'ts gross!" Of course I was like, "Do I!" so she showed me a picture of a muscley guy in speedos with an ass that looked like the rocky mountains. I sort of politely smiled and said, ya that's pretty nasty. Then I backed away slowly. No real point to that story, I just thought it was sort of cute.
I've been feeling phenomenally unproductive lately. My lack of blogging is a major component of that. I've actually not wanted to blog, but I guess you could say that I've wanted to want to blog. Hopefully I'll become more prolific. I actually got one or two people commenting on my lack of writing. That was sort of flattering. So anyways, I'm done. Thanks to all who read, and as always, I welcome any and all comments, questions or even insults if it means you're reading. E-mail addy's on the side there. Or icq or msn if you want.
That's all for now. See ya.